I absolutely agree about the being in control thing. It is an astounding analysis. Yes I know it is crucial.
The being on the edge of success is trying as you know. And it almost seems more difficult when that carrot is just barely outside of our grasp and we seem to be standing on the edge of a cliff.
I do think my realization is the key I've been looking for, actually the lock. Now off in search of the key.
I know now how much I've done to bring on my greatest fear and how that fear works against me. I do think I am processing it. Analyzing it won't work. I've turned to meditation and that seems to be helpful. I think it is a skill I need to develop.
Fortunately I have a new friendship and that friend is skilled in meditation. Perhaps I'll ask for help in that area.
