at first he was willing to go to counseling, but after moving in with his sister he took the stance of "we've been to counseling before, why try again" and that we've tried everything. I thought the part about looking at things with a beginner's mind might intrigue him. I really have a fear of going completely dark and pushing his belief further that I don't care. I don't know where that belief even came from, as I was always trying to find more ways to spend time together, and recently trying to take more interest in his hobbies.
I have just never felt so lost and out of control in my life. He is letting his family run things and they are having his lawyer push this D through as quickly as they can. I KNOW I can't control anything but me, but I cannot get a grip on my fears and my sadness. I have started reading DR again - it helped me feel like I had hope before.
