Quote: He tried to initiate this morning, at 5am, after I'd been up since 2am unable to sleep. I was tired and not in the mood but he pulled me over to his side of the bed and started touching me and kissing me. I made it obvious that I wasn't interested (eg. moving my head away when he tried to kiss me), but he kept at it until I eventually turned away. He got up, banged and crashed around with the shits while getting ready for work, then came in and forcibly rolled me over and kissed me 'goodbye'. Now I want sex even less. When I got up I noticed on my 'Things to do list' he has added 'have sex with my husband'.
My H has displayed identical behavior. I can understand the frustration, but it certainly doesn't make him very attractive. I'd like to be inflamed by the mere thought of him. That doesn't happen and never has, but I'm working on it.
I can appreciate you wanting him to find sexual release elsewhere, (I've felt the same way) but that is supremely destructive. I urge you to rethink that.
Has your libido been on an even keel for most of your marriage?
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"
