Well last H came and picked up d6 and was not in a great mood-h said he was stressed. I said I understood.Later that evening, I called H(a 180) and told him that he could drop off d6 early since he felt stressed H responded he had a sergeant's exam and he would let me know.
I know maybe I should not be in piecing yet but it is very positive here.
So H arrived a bit early and dropped d6 off. I went out on a limb and spoke to H about our friendship.
I told h i didn't like that we are not friends as we were. Before H would come by and hang out with us. I never really appreciated that and I always wanted more-now. H said that it is hard for him to see us as friends because he doesn't trust me. H said that my true colors would show after awhile.(we would get ino an arguement) That made me realize , even though I had thought I was right in all my actions towards H - I really was just making it about me. I never really understood what H was going through. We would get along great but when h would act like he was too busy for d6 and I and give me an attitude I would react to it. WOW! I was wrong also. Yes -H was not nice but my reaction made it worse. I was not focusing on myself.
Well, we continued to talk and I told H i was not understanding of him and thought his life was fun and he was having a good time. H responded, "yeah, be in my crappy shoes for a day, you'll see how great my life is"
I told H i wanted to get us back to the way we were. H said he was at the point that he didn't care if we ever spoke.
I said,"gee that's nice" H said," then make me feel differently...make me want to be that way again. I said , " you don't think I can..." H responded," no ..but PROVE me wrong" I said " I will..will you apologize for not trusting me(jokingly) H said yes I will..but prove me wrong I said ,"when I do, will you buy me dinner too? (jokingly) H said yes I said , " good luck tom and he said thanks
Now, I have just realized that maybe h has been waiting and testing me not to react towards all this. And I always have mostly because of my ego. I never really helped him get through this..I made it worse. I was angry then and thought I could handle it .Now h has challenged me to be the better person and let go of all the anger and focus on me. He leaves next Friday for a two week trip so It will be hard then but my goal is to show him that I am here for him even through all this.
Well, what do we think????????? I need some tips on what I can do
Me 31 H 32 together 16 yrs M 8 yrs(this November) D6 Seperated since last July
