I haven't logged on for a while now - just every once in a while to read some of what's been going on with others.
I have a couple of reasons. The first is that I'm in a very busy time at work now. Since I don't have an internet connection at home, everything has to be done in the office. I haven't had a spare moment in weeks. Right now, it's the weekend, so I can fit a few words in.
The second reason for being away is that I was in uncharted waters with my wife. She had called it off with the OP, filling me in on some horrific stuff about him, and we had been seeing a therapist about our marriage problems. Things even started looking up. I just wanted to enjoy that and was afraid to start looking at it too closely.
I should have.
The last week, my wife has been strange. Yesterday, I asked her what the problem was, and she was reluctant to talk.
Bad sign.
She ended up telling me that she has been too hurt by me and that she wants a divorce. Then, after more questions, that she is in love with the OP.
Just a few weeks back, she was thanking me for holding on to the marriage, which she thought kept her from giving in to the OP's demands and - as she says - "ruining her life."
She spent HOURS talking about the crazy, crazy things this cretin has said to her. The more she recognized how insane he is, the more she shivered. She described it as a nightmare.
Now she's in love with the nightmare.
These days are bad for me. I'm sorry that I haven't been around to lend anyone any comfort. I don't think anything would make me feel better right now.
From what my counseler has said (also the phone coach I called a while back), I'm "doing everything right."
