I'm not a particularly religious person, and I'm certainly not in the Lord's good graces today after what I had to say about Him yesterday, but I know what you're saying.
Of course I have a lot to be thankful for. Perhaps even this. I will come out different, one way or the other. Hopefully better in some ways. Hopefully the negatives (less trust in people, a kind of jadedness, permanant frown-lines, etc.) will be minimal.
And I am learning about how I helped screw up my marriage, which probably wouldn't have happened unless a nice little miracle had tapped me on the shoulder one (apparently) fine day while the wife and I were together.
But I still feel like laying down in a field somewhere and watching the sky go dark.
