I have grieved a lot!!!I left my job and went to work in a different city - then 2 months later moved back here. You can't run away, the sadness follows you.
Right now - I'm concentrating on the mean things he has said and done to me; that way he doesn't look to good to me.
Every single night - I go outside and there is a bright star that I think is God. Below that are two stars that are 1) my XH and 2) H OW. Just above her star is my star. Every single night I see this: 1:00 a.m., 3:00 a.m. etc. So I say the Lord's prayer looking at the main star. I say goodnight to XH star and nothing to her star. My star is closer to God's star, so I know he watches over me.
Your H sounds like he is doing eveything to piss you off. I know you haven't seen him for a while, but he hasn't exactly called either. He sounds like mine...he wants out. I think we are wasting too much time and mental energy on them. What will happen is out of our control.
I got tired of dancing around w/o getting any response. Like I said earlier, I'll see him when he is at his funeral if I don't go first.
