I have the feeling I am on the wrong board. Just b/c W said she wants to work on it doesn't mean it is going to happen. I think I should post a question on the MLC board.
And I had a major backslide. W knows how to push my buttons. Tuesday evening W said she has an appt. w/her C. Then she called at a time when I thought she must be home by now, 'oh, I was late for my appt. (she had the day off from work!) so it took longer, and oh, I have to stop by the mall and pay a bill'. Me:ok, I thought we have dinner together, I will feed D5. 45 min later (when I thought she would be home by now) another call, 'oh, I saw a couple of dresses, really nice, they kept me here, but I'm coming home now. Then it took again quite a while until she was home and she came with a hamper. Stopped at another store. Now it was almost time for D5 to go to bed. And it was a special day for her b/c she had a teddy bear from school for the night. So I got angry again, yes, I'm sorry, but it happened.
W has the whole day for herself, her major goal was to spent more time w/the children. But if they are home she has to go to the mall, she couldn't do that during the day????
Then W tells me she had a really tough C session and needed the time away. She could have said so! Now she says she wanted to talk to me about her C session, but b/c I got angry she is NOT talking to me anymore! Great. I know I make mistakes b/c I haven't slept for more than 3 h a night since Sat. And I'm emotionally exhausted.
I know I have to work to be calmer, but I'm not superman.
Dealing w/W in MLC is just awful.
I just had to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.
