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And if you don't mind me saying, I think you're off to damn fine start!




Thank you.

Well they told me I couldn't get the PFA because it's only one incident.
It's out of my hands (pressing charges) anyway, they will be filed. It has nothing to do with credibility. He hit me, and needs punished for that.
They told me I would have to have contact with him because of the kids, and custody and whatnot.

I am trying to do what is best for everyone.
Do I believe he deserves to see his children? NO . . . but I know it will happen.
Do I ever want him back? NO . . and I'll do whatever it takes, to remember this black eye, and the fear that came with it.

I simply do not want to push this total unstable man anymore over the edge than he already is.
He's got another women pregnant, and I would feel awful if me filing for the divorce pushed him far enough over the edge to hurt her and her baby.

I truly want him to be happy, I really do.
I hold nothing against him, I simply want him out of my life.

I am moving forward and stepping out on my own.
I'm going out on a kind of double date/blind date. It's not really a date at all, just another friend (who's having marriage problems) getting together with some guys from work and she wanted me come along. We are going bowling.
Should be a good time, anything that helps me realize that I am still beautiful and worthwhile is welcomed.
This is exactly what I needed.
On November 9th . . I turn 22 . . . and that will be 1 year since Kevin said he wanted a divorce.
On that day I will ask my family for help paying for the divorce . . . but I will give Kevin a little time to go to the doctors. If he does not by 2007 . . . I am filing regaurdless because that shows me he doesn't want help and is only stalling.
I just want to prevent a bad situation from becoming a lot worse.