My H is officially on his way home. I am soooo confused . . .
In my confusion at least I understand that it is not a time to make decision . . . so I am going to have faith and BE STILL! I will allow this weekend to be GREAT, I will allow my H to simply unwind and relax around me. Something I don't think he's done in almost a year.
I have strange peace, God must be moving in some way. At least he is moving enough in me to allow to expect nothing and except whatever may come, even be it divorce.
I have been thrown tempation, another GREAT guy to talk to, and possibly "fall for" but I see the trap for what it is . . . . . and I will not fall into that hell. I will not be a cheater, I refuse. The Devil can stick that plan right up his you-know-where and spin
I'm getting my act together . . . and preparing to be STUNNING this weekend. Wish me luck! PRAY EXTRA HARD! This is my short prayer . . . . "God grant me this strength to prove that I truly have changed. I can feel the way you have moved in me, when I wasn't watching or expecting it YOU saved me. I thank you everyday for all of your wonder. Let me be and do what you want."
I'll be around, guys ((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) TO ALL OF YOU!
