Quote: I don't know where to step when he resents me for everything I try. I let go he gets mad. I hold on he gets mad. I cannot find any middle ground with him. . . he's spent too long hating me.
Okay, Emily. But you still have to go through a lot before it's really going to be over. Let it happen. And then see how God moves.
See, Emily it doesn't matter what Kevin says he feels or even what he does. I said to my husband I did not love him and wanted a divorce. I spent a couple years convincing him of that. He let me go. But look at how things have turned around. He had let me go.
Perhaps you have to let Kevin go, too. But don't avoid the natural things you are going to be brought to AND through. Do not spend your twenties with your head in the sand. Face your monsters. You've told us enough about your past that we know you have them. I had them to. They laid the foundation for my MLC. DO NOT LET THAT HAPPEN TO YOU.
You've been here all along for a reason. If it is only to hear this, then I pray you hear it.
Save yourself.
Do not let the things from your childhood creep up 10 or 15 years from now and do to you what they've done to me. Or cost you what they cost me.
Face them and bury them now.
You are loved. You are worthy. You are precious and you matter in this world. The things that are important to you are important to God.
No matter how far away you might have fallen, or ever fall from Him, think about my story and know He will never leave you either.
