I wish it was true. Kevin isn't watching . . . . he has no intentions of us ever being together again.
Nor do I really. I have given up I suppose.
He is too clouded by her. That is the truth . . . the only thing on his agenda is HER. Not me or his children . . . HER.
I don't know how to push past that, that is his choice. I cannot make him love me. That is the cold hard truth. It's taken this long for me to understand that. Now I just feel it is time to dissovle it so we can both move on and well find happiness. No I don't want her in my childrens lives . . but that is HIS choice not mine. I cannot change it.
I don't know where to step when he resents me for everything I try. I let go he gets mad. I hold on he gets mad. I cannot find any middle ground with him. . . he's spent too long hating me.
