That's just it Amy. I have detached. . . . . and I can't live like this.
I don't care if he comes back!!! He brings me down, I am so much happier without him.
I don't want a long distance marriage where my H doesn't even care enough to call and check in more than once a week. If I'm going to be in a relationship I want it to be with someone who cares about me. That's not him. . . not anymore.
I also understand that he'll always "be in my life" because of the girls. But he won't be in MY life he'll be in THEIRS, I never have to interact with him again if I don't want to.
I am sick of him, and I honestly don't feel any of things I used to feel for him. He makes me feel bad anymore. I'm always thinking about not measuring up, and all the rotten things he's said to me. I think it's better for everyone invovled that we just split up.
My brother e-mailed me and went off about how Kevin and I are horrible for each other, and if we continued on he would get invovled. (I.E. try to take the kids, because he feels that we fight too much) I certainly don't want that to happen. I understand that the chances they'd get taken are almost nonexistant but I don't want the court shoved up both our butts because of my family.
I mean sure I'll miss him, but no more than I do now. Holidays will be hard, but as it is now I probably won't see him anyway. He'd rather be with her, it's time for me to stop the games.
