I woke up this morning with divorce on my mind. I felt ready for it to be over.
That was 4 hours ago . . . . now I feel like not giving in, but I just feel like I've already lost that battle and I would just be fighting reality.
I am so unsure of how to proceed. Part of me says it's dead and there's no use beating it further. . . then another part says that it could be brought back. I just don't know what to do. Time will tell . . . I am treading water now . . . just trying to keep my head up. . . prepare for war and make my peace all at once. Who knows what will come next. Next weekend will the a good tell-tale. I still haven't heard from my H . . . not since Sunday, I don't know what's going on . . and that makes me crazy.
