I feel exactly like you do!!! If they really loved us or wanted us why would they divorce us?? If they can D us then they really don't won't us right??
It's been 6 months and we're about to go to mediation and he has not changed his mind in the least bit. I am starting to slowly detach. Almost like I don't know who I'm going to court for. I haven't seen him since July...so it's going to be weird. He has turned into a completely different person...and would I want him back after what he's put me through?? Would you take yours back after all this has happened?? But I feel the exact same way as you...why are we holding on to this hope? We need to move on...what other choice do we have?? If they wanted us back they would be calling and saying so right??