Buddy, I'm bummed to hear things haven't gotten better....but I'm with Cat - it might just be time to say enough is enough.
I mean, even thought I'm piecing, in a lot of ways I'm doing it on MY terms - I think that this is what sometimes makes piecing so difficult - when we get our WAS's back, if we retain the inner strenght it can sometimes cause conflict. I mean, heck, we prepared ourselves for the worse so sometimes it a bit tough to break out of.
But the bottom line is, we need march forward toward something we WANT - and if you cannot do that with a partner - equally vested in making it better - then what is the point?
I know for me I wanted by kids to see a set of parents that while we couldn't live together anymore, cared deeply about them and that I act as a role model for them and for the relationships they were going to have in the future.
There is no room in this world for repression - you are far to good a person for that. It clearly is your H that does not share that vision and to me, it's time to find someone that will.
You need something positive in your life - sounds like he aint it.
Take your life back - its YOURS.
E
Never sacrifice the great for the good. Sometimes the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.
