honey, i'm just caching up to your sitch, I'm sorry things are no better.
You have to think in the long run what will be the best for the kids, seeing both of you get at each other's throats or living peacefully elsewhere. I too would be sad if my kids where to loose our home w/a yard, but above all, I'd want them to grow up happy, w/a happy me. If you are feeling worthless and HE is making you feel this way, you must realize that the situation is getting from bad to worse and that the house isn't worth your sanity. You are becoming a sad scared person, is that the mother you want for the kids?
My H's mom put up w/her abuse H to keep the home, they ended being two strangers who hated each other under the same roof, my H has issues like no one's business. One time he laid it on his mom something awful, about how she keep that awful man around them only to keep appearances and the facade of a "normal" family".
The choice isnt' easy at all, I feel your pain SE, but please think of the future, you deserve to be happy and this situation isnt' getting any better. If you choose to leave it wouldn't make you weak, it takes a strong person to stand for herself and the ones she/he loves.
I will keep you in my prayers)))))))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
