Starting from scratch...

[StrongEnough]

Wow....I had an epiphany this morning. I have been so stupid and naive.

H has been on me about everything. Asking me to change this, change that, etc. I no sooner start working on changing when BAM there is yet another problem. No matter what amount of change I make, he distances himself more and more. He is setting my up for unattainable changes.

We are both home this morning. H barely talks to me. When he does, he has an attitude towards me. He is supposed to go to our D's school today to make after school arrangements to accomodate our work schedules. He said yesterday he would do this today. When I asked him about when he was going (I have to work tonight) he gets mad that I didn't volunteer to go

So, he goes outside to do trash and whatnot. Next thing I know, he takes off. No goodbye..no nothing. I call him and ask him what is going on. Tells me I am being ridiculous and that it was a "known" thing that he was going. I call him on his distancing himself even more, asking for changes then not responding (or them not being good enough) and all the stuff. He acts outraged. Says it basically MY problem. Almost like I was bothering him bringing this up. I told him if he didn't want to be with me to just tell me. Naturally, he throws it back at me saying it must be what I want because I mention it a lot. He doesn't understand that his actions point towards that. I told him I was just waiting for him to grow some and tell me what it is he was thinking/feeling. He says he has but will repeat himself if need be. (Basically, I am at fault for everything) Tells me to draw up an agreement for seperation and let him know.

All I can figure is that I have been blind. He is acting exactly like he did last time he was having an A. Very thick-headed, very stubborn and doesn't really care about anything. Won't be the one to make a move but would rather drive me to make the move.

I knew that gut instinct pit in my stomach hasn't been there for nothing.

I really need some help and adivce here. I am at a loss.