Starting from scratch...

[StrongEnough]

Hi Always!!!!!! I have read your posts. Took me a bit to find you, but I did. Aye yi yi.......you've been through a lot girl! It does sound like you are doing great though! I really didn't have anything to add since I don't think I am in a position to be handing out too much advice!

Thanks for taking the time to drop by my thread!

You bring up a lot of good points. About thinking about changes that could change the dynamic of my situation. The stress of moving, etc.

I'm not sure at this point that I want to try and jumpstart something new. I am really at a place of indecision. I am weighing the events over the last two years and trying to make an educated decision about what I want to do with my life. (Unfortunately, it also means my children's lives as well). I don't know if it's possible to become DB'ed out. I am out of energy and patience. I am out of the drive to keep doing this. I didn't expect miracles to happen from the move....but I didn't expect it to make a bad situation worse either.

Here I am again......all screwed up in the head.

runningoutoftime- Thanks for your input. To answer your question about custody and the kids...well....H and I went through the D proceedings. I was granted custody and he was granted visitation. Even though the D was never finalized...the judge's orders were entered into court. They still stand today if I choose to finalize the D.

I really don't think H would take anything out on his kids. When we were seperated he lived to see them. Funny as it sounds, in hindsight (which is 20/20) H and I both seem to be better people and parents when we aren't together. Wow...if that little fact isn't an eye opener nothing is.

~SE