Starting from scratch...

[StrongEnough]

MMO-

Thanks for dropping by. Your insight is always welcomed and very much appreciated. You are correct, H is a toughy. When we first got back together he took blame for his faults. I don't know what happened. Well, I do. He's the same old H that I had before the bomb. I see a lot of similarity between him and your father.

It's true there is only so much a person can take. I think I have taken more then I ever thought I would. I don't expect him to kiss my butt, but I also don't expect to have to kiss his to keep the peace.

BI- I apologize. I did read into it too much (or I am on auto-pilot with feeling like I have to defend myself) and I was out of line. Guess I am as stressed and tired as you are. I didn't mean to sound so harsh towards you. I do thank you for taking the time to post to me.

This week H is covering another store for his job. He forgot his shaver at the store he normally works in. After work last night he actually drove 1+ hours one way to get it. I have no idea what time he actually got home because I go to bed early for my job. I found it kind of odd that he would do that...knowing that I was working in that area today and could get it for him. I don't even think he used it this morning....so what gives? Also, he mentions this morning that I am sleeping restlessly. (Nothing new for me) After 12 years of it........NOW he says it's waking him and he doesn't know what to do. I know him well and I know this is his set-up to sleep in the spare room.

So, here I am. I am so down and out right now that I couldn't even go to work today. I feel sick to my stomach. The anxiety and stress is causing me chest pains. I just don't think I could possible sink any lower then I am right now. Not sassy and beautiful like I would like to be, but just merely going through the motions of life to survive.