Whoa! I have been doing my errands, listening to Evanescense and feeling really bad about my childish, selfish, self-centered behaviour only to come back to this.
As always OT, you have hit the nail on the head. Everything you wrote to me is the gosh darn truth. How can I be SO stupid? Through no one's fault but our own we are buried in debt. I have cancelled cable, switched car insurance from full coverage to liablility, garbage pickup from 2 days to 1 and have started working a part-time job. Yet this money REALLY helped get us caught up. I am in no position to give it back but I will tell my husband that it was wrong of me to accept it. Reading what you wrote made be cry for all the hurtful things I have done to contribute to the demise of my M.
As far as the lunch, I think I do make his lunch so he doesn't go out and spend money that we don't have. Looking at it now I realize how wrong that is, not to mention controlling. I do the laundry, cause I do everyone's laundry - no control issues there (I don't think).
You must be reading my thread thinking this girl is an idiot and doesn't deserve her H and M.
I am a martyr, the poor-me victim, the I am right/you are wrong, selfish bitch. Right now I have to say I really can't blame my H. I really think therapy might be my only hope. I need to change and I don't know if I have the ability to do it on my own.
