Journaling: Well, today, Oct. 14th, is the 1 year anniv. since my world came crashing down around me. On 10/14/05 my H went out of town for the weekend "fishing with the guys". He was very distant and angry prior to that and had started going out on Saturdays (something he never did). I never really paid much attention to it.
Once he left I knew he wasn't with "the guys". Two days after he returned I searched his cell phone and saw a number I didn't recognize. Many incoming and outgoing calls but none while he was away. Thru an online search I found out who belonged to that number. I realized it was someone H worked with. I was so hurt and upset!! I woke him up in the middle of the night and confronted him. We stayed up hours in which time he confessed and told me that he no longer loved me...yada yada, you all know the drill.
By December he was staying out all night at least once a week. Always claiming to be too drunk to drive home. I once took the kids out of bed in the middle of the night and drove to where he said he was sleeping in his car only to find that he wasn't there - Duh!!
The next morning his suitcase was packed and by the front door. He returned with his tail between his legs and apologized and said it would never happen again. Needless to say, it continued.
The first three months I did everything wrong; I cried, I begged, I wrote letters and cards, even tried to overdose. Then I found this website and found that I wasn't alone. There were others going thru similar sitch's as me. I quickly read DR and have been DB'ing ever since.
While things are not completely healed they are much better. A week ago H sort of apologized for all that he put me thru this past year and professed his love for me and told me I was his best friend and soul mate.
Now this morning he calls from work (as he has been doing every day now for about a week) and is all happy and nice. Did he set me up? He should have been home 1 hour ago. Is he with her?
Should I confront him when he gets home? I planned on giving him a hug and a kiss and telling him that I loved him but now I'm not so sure anymore.
