I'm gonna piss MANY people off here, but it won't be the first time. I get plenty of hate mail or e-mail that is. I could give two sh^ts. So here it goes.
Deserve or entitlement or me me me...it's all bullsh^t. Life sucks. I can go toe to toe with just about anybody who wants to have pity party about how bad life is. If we are posting we are above ground. That's a good thing.
You need to be the "Strong"bear NOW. Yes you are a victim. Yes he is wrong. Yes you feel like sh^t. HE cannot be strong. HE is not capable. Is that fair NO. YOU ARE. You have been.
Go back and read your very first post. See how far you have come. Life is not about, "Oh I deserve love, I deserve a great spouse, I deserve to be treated better" Bullsh^t. Deserve has nothing to do with it.
YOU decided to fight for your marriage when you had every legal and spiritual reason to leave. You did not. You fought. Keep on fighting.
Point being...you cannot wallow in the state you are in. If you do you will not get the marriage you want. I'm not saying that you have every right to feel bad. You do. It sucks. You are a victim. You are right and he is wrong. That is a fact. Accept it. Life sucks.
Keep on fighting and one day he will come crawling on his knees begging you for forgiveness. He will honor you and hold you up.
Fight the fight hon. Be strong. He can't. It's not fair.
