Excellent replies here, I really appreciate it and it gives me much food for thought. There is no doubt that this has forced me to look deep within, to change my life for myself and to find happiness in places I would never have looked before. Silver linings and all...
Ford, I too would have sold my soul to have H come home. I didn't care if he came back from guilt about the children, or only because ow dumped him (I wish!) or because he didn't have money for another place (rich father solved that problem), I just wanted him home. I figured once he was back, we could find love again. I am so glad now none of those scenarios played out--I realize it would not have "made me happy."
Anyway, I am glad for this discussion--it is insightful and real. Althea
