i understand that the hell hasn't even begun....however, i don't want to be misunderstood here.....
i'm depressed not only because of the A ending...but because it happened in the first place....i've been depressed (and on medication) for about 2 years now....i feel overwhealming guilt for what i've done....i was never the kind of person to have an A and it kills me that i am now
and i was unhappy with my M when i started the A....i only wish i would have put the energy it took to carry on with the A into my M....i would most likely be happy and not depressed.....live and learn
