Today H has said he doesn't know if he loves me or not. He can't bear me to go anywhere near him (sit next to him, hold his hand in comfort for example) He says he doesn't know if that is because he doesn't think its right while we are separated or if its because he just can't stand me touching him period. He then left.

Half an hour later he dropped by with a chocolate bar for me on his way to work and gave me a big hug and told me to calm down. I asked why he keeps telling me to calm down and he said its because he hates to see me upset.

I don't think any of my positive signs have been real at all. I think H just feels incredibly guilty about leaving and is doing all the hugging and days out because he feels guilty. I don't know what to do. I don't want him doing this sort of thing out of pity.


Me 34 H 33 S2 Together 10yrs Married 6yrs Bomb 12th Aug 06