How to handle H in separate room

[inpain_dup1]

I know exactly where I went wrong and even H has admitted I have completely changed on them all since he left and still I am not good enough for him to try again with. I can't afford to see a T - our savings are dwindling away at a rapid rate trying to support two separate lives when H only earns enough to support one. Without H I have no home and no money. I too know I wasn't a good wife before he left and I have realised too late. I feel more in love with him each time we see each other and spend happy times together. We live miles away from anything so I can't even GAL without borrowing the car from him which is hardly being independent. I know everyone here has been through the same or worse I truly do not know how you are all still hanging on.