I haven't posted in a while because my internet at home isn't functional...things have been pretty rough for me but I'm trying to get back my marriage saving attitude. It seems as though everytime I'm at my Hs apartment there is another piece of her there...I read a Christmas card from her and it seems she's "in love" with my H. It was a rough time through Christmas but I made it and hopefully I'll get faith back in God as for saving my marriage and my H. He just went out and bought a new car last week and still seems as though he has no intentions of coming home though we had some very interesting conversations last week.
I need encouragement if anybody has any as I have contemplated serving papers the last couple weeks...I've backed off on that but need my DBing back on track. I started getting anxiety about him again and am having a hard time being really cheerful around him. I hope I can get happy again...it's just been hard. He got her gifts and me none of course...i wasn't expecting anything but thought it would be a bonus...no bonus for me this time. Did ask him if I could model what was in the Victoria's Secret that was sitting next to his bed?? He said it wasn't that...it was just the bag...RIGHT!! I call BS. I just chuckled and said "dang."
Gotta go for now...there's so much more to say so maybe tomorrow I'll get on again after work.
