Hey Peanut hope your movie was good...I'm glad you're getting out and doing things that's awesome.

So I texted my husband at about 12:30am since I was still up last night and offered that he could pick S up from my brother and SIL's house today and then take him to his dad's but once again he tried to make me feel guilty by saying "i guess i won't pick him up since he's with them...to bad for my dad." I texted back and said "would it make u happy if i dropped him off for you, i have to drop off a card for your dad anyway." He said "as a matter of fact it would " So I told him i'd do it.

Things went fine until i walked in the door and saw him...i see him all the time but lately i get anxiety when i see him. I started to let down my guard a little and he hurt me again i suppose...I just feel like i have to be distant and keep my guard up so i won't get hurt. I told him months ago i wasn't going to let him hurt me anymore and I did...very frustrating. Everybody at in-laws house kept telling me to stay while H was sitting right there...they were very open about it..."no stay, no eat pizza and hang out." They were all just sitting there in the same room on the couches which before wouldn't have been a big deal but my H was acting funny so I decided to leave and left S with him and he said he would drop him off at the house for me, though I could tell he was frustrated because he wanted S to spend the night tonight probably so he could turn down Tuesday so he could spend the night with his girlfriend.

A bit after I left my MIL called me and told me what had happened. H had said "somethins up with H~ and i don't know what it is" so MIL decided to say "i think u hurt her feelings." Of course his response is "what did i do to do that." She says "you're taking her S to the zoo with your girlfriend." Keep in mind this is in front of his three younger brother and his SIL. He said "i didn't tell her i was going with my girlfriend." So his mom said "you didn't have to say it, i was there and it was pretty obvious." He said "she has to understand that OW doesn't do any parenting with S...she doesn't hold him or even touch him." Can I point out, that is very disturbing all in itself...holy cow he's dating someone who wants nothing to do with our S..."i'm sorry but are u psychotic" comes to mind. So MIL says "it doesn't matter if she parents or not." He says "what do u mean." She says "H~ loves you." H says "she doesn't have to." Then SIL pipes in and says "and I don't know why she does." H says "shutup SIL."

So yah...all that happened before I even got to H's dads house to drop off S...no wonder H was acting funny...WEIRD. So H came to drop off S after he was done at his dad's house, he came in the house handed me our sleeping S and sat on the couch for a few minutes...playing with dog and trying to make conversation. Let's just say he knows he was caught red handed but I can keep my cool...I haven't mentioned a word about it and I'm just going to wish them a wonderful time.

For some reason he can't stand it when I'm not happy with him...he tries so hard to suck up...it seems like he just wants no conflict to deal with but reality is when you're cheating on your wife and your OW is extremely attached to you and your wife still wants to make your marriage work...there's definately going to be conflict...don't think he quite understands that one yet.