just gettin started on my life w/o H

[ForPeanut]

Bottom line, money sucks. Congrats on the job though! It is really great that your H is willing to help you. Maybe your mom is questioning the loan because of your H? She might change her mind. Your bank might have a short term loan option for you too. Check into it. You don't need the $ stress on top of everything else.

There are so many things that may be dampening your mood but it sounds like maybe it is because you just are more in limbo. When he was not being as nice and giving you as much hope, it was easier to be guarded and at least secure that he wasn't coming back right now. The way he has been talking lately though, you have to be on your toes at all times just in case he throws the "I want to come back" at you. Just a thought.

I have to run to my cousin's house to deliver a bday present quick but if you are on soon, let me know what time zone you are in and maybe I can give you a call tonight.
~T