just gettin started on my life w/o H

[ForPeanut]

I think YAY for you! At the very least, the holidays have gotten him thinking. He obviously isn't ready to jump into the pool just yet but he is putting his toes in to test the water. He was feeling jealous over you talking to his friend and got a bit mad when you told him why but that was probably only because he felt that guilt creeping in. He is keeping you at a distance by mentioning OW but isn't too worried about you spending time together. He could have had many excuses to not go to lunch. And it would have been very easy to let you pay your own. More guilt no doubt got him on that one. I think it sounds like you are really on your way! Like you said, something is going to happen. Although, it seems like it is going in your favor. Not that he couldn't decide that the closeness is too much and all of a sudden want that D now but it doesn't seem to be heading that way. Just keep doing what you are doing and let him lead. He needs to feel in control at the moment and know that you are not "manipulating" or "pushing" him back with you. Some big baby steps! Yay!
~T