just gettin started on my life w/o H

[ForPeanut]

I am feeling your helplessness feeling and don't know if I am jealous of all the contact you have with your H or glad that mine seems to be pretty much keeping his new life to himself. I just have to compliment you on keeping your cool with him and being able to handle seeing him so often. Seeing my H always seems to just stir me up and get me down. As for the nursing, DO NOT stop just for your H. Do it when you are ready. You need the bonding with your S just as much as your S is thriving on the nutrients. Sure, it is a pain for your H but it wouldn't be if he had made different choices. My motto, "No sympathy". His choices=his consequences. I have told my H, "Not my deal, it was your choice." It may be tough but it is the only way that I can attempt to stay strong with him sometimes. Just keep plugging along and keep journaling.

Here with you,
~T