FP I feel the same way...I am so completely attracted to my H but at the same time it is such a weird feeling because I don't feel like he's mine...I feel like he's somebody elses. I'm sure the feelings will fade quickly if and when he wants to work on our marriage and there's no OW but right now it's just a weird feeling I get in that direction. I really try not to think about all of that sexual stuff...it does me no good and only hinders my DBing. I get completely grossed out momentarily when I think about him sharing his body with her or touching her body like he touched mine...not a good feeling...but I also miss our life together also...that's time we really enjoyed together. He told the world how that's one thing we had in common...we both loved to do that. He bragged about me to the guys...and then this...so confusing!!!

H stopped by unannounced today for the first time ever. He had said earlier today he may come over but he'd call first. He didn't call...just dropped by. He was very depressed and not his bubbly self...kinda weird but made me happy. I was happy around him and he was nice to me...I just know somethings going on with him and OW. He asked me what we are doing tomorrow and I said I wasn't sure yet...I was trying to think of something to do. I asked him what he was up to besides sleeping since he works tonight and he said he wasn't sure either. Said he'd talk to me tomorrow. He couldn't look at me tonight but he was very quiet and seemed as though there was really something weighing on his mind.

I texted him a picture of our son with his jammies on his head...he put them there himself...he was so tired...he was trying to get himself ready for bed It said "Daddy is this how my jammies go?" H was amused and texted back saying he was going to pass out soon then I could sleep in in the morning...I mentioned while H was here how tired i've been this week and I think he may feel a little guilty. I texted back and let him know son was already passed out and I would be soon too and he texted back "good night." I am just very happy that he knows that I am still here for him and that he doesn't have to be so distant.

My wedding ring is really big on me since i've lost 30lbs and am now like....well size 1...smaller than i've ever been in my life i might add Kinda fun being skinny I had my ring in my pocket instead of on my hand when H stopped by because it kinda annoys me since it twists around so much so he was probably pondering that too.

I'm trying not to attempt figuring out all of his sayings and doings anymore but it's hard not to want to make sense of it all! It's all so confusing.