So I saw H again yesterday at his grandpa's funeral. My H and I are always very civil and polite around each other and I'm curious why other people are trying to make things more difficult for us.
When we got in a line to put the roses on top of the casket I was crying...H had gone way before me...I hugged everyone in his extended family because we have all gotten along very well over the last 8 years. I could see on H's face that he was expecting me to hug him but I just couldn't bring myself to do it....I walked right past...rubbed his arm a tad...and picked up my S1. It is so hard...I just don't feel like he's even mine anymore...I feel like he belongs to someone else...which I guess he does right now.
Of course it was very weird though...at lunch we sat at opposite ends of the table to eat and my evil SIL sat right next to him...she's trying to be his best friend eventhough they've always despised eachother. It's pretty good that the only people that support you are people that you once despised! It's almost commical because everyone actually notices what she is doing comments on how they NEVER got along before...evil SIL would never even let her H spend the night with mine because she didn't trust my H. It has been 6 years of that....now she's his best friend and let her H spend the night with my H Monday night....eveyone said "can you believe she actually let him spend the night??" It's comical in a VERY twisted way. The good thing is that even when it was just H's two brothers with him Monday night he didn't even mention other woman except when one brother asked about us splitting and it was a very short answer.
It was very stressful and I'm glad to be home. My H is supposed to be spending the night at the beach tomorrow with OW....not confirmed but assumed. Apparently he went a night early to the beach and is spending two nights...I think he's pretty stessed about the whole situation. Hopefully he doesn't go and make more bad decisions!
He's starting to tell everyone that the A didn't happen until after I kicked him out, basically blaming it on me,even though he admitted it to me two days after I kicked him out. He's really trying to justify himself to eveyone right now. He told OW's H on May 31st that he was emotionally attached to his wife and that was 2.5 months before I kicked him out.
