just gettin started on my life w/o H

[RBinBR]

This advice may seem odd at first, but you've ultimately got to stop hoping and just give it to God and let him take care of it. Your H has a ways to go before he's ready to give up the OW, and God is going to use this to teach you far greater patience than you knew you could learn. You need to be prepared for the long haul and come to grips with the fact that this is likely to be a long process.