Thanks. Sometimes I'm of the opinion that she's nuts and this is all crazy, and sometimes I am compassionate to the point where I'm almost agreeing to things I don't really want to. Yes, I think it's really sad that she's not trying to learn from this with me, that she's not able to see the universally applicable, transferable skills she could be learning with me right now - but hey, why work at anything when you're perfect in another arena?
She is choosing to destroy our damaged marriage. I contributed to the damage, not the ultimate destruction. She is to blame for that choice. I am responsible for her not being happy in our relationship. Clear. My blame doesn't do anything to help heal us, or to contribute to all of us moving forward in a way that will help us grow as people and be happy in our lives. I'm truly interested in the well being of everyone involved in this - I'm motivated by my desire to see the best possible scenario play out for everyone, not just for me. I guess I accepted and internalized my W's projection of selfish desire onto me - or am I just justifying my resistance to the situation as it is?
I need to give it all a rest.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
