I haven't been on in few weeks, but somehow this subject must have drawn me back!!
I too have much to be positive about, H back home, our R slowly rebuilding and i have so many things to be grateful for.
But, that OW and the secret thoughts remain popping into my brain., thank god, not as often. i also never saw her either, & my mental picture of her may be better off not knowing. There also is this remaining silence of secrecy of that whole time. Many times I wonder if not knowing any exact scenarios creats more morbid obcessive mental pictures.
i.e. think they rode horses together, and now I can't even picture a horse without wanting the horse to stomp on her.,
I don't even want to go to the place of thinking about the PA of it all, but now when H and I, ML, at times it also comes into my bed!!! i know i gotta work hard on getting rid of that 3rd person there for sure!!
