I do not post much, I read your sitch every now and again since you posted once on my thread. My H and i have been reconciled for 2 months now.. and it is a Journey.
.... but since reading this I feel as though I should post to you. I really feel for you and know that this is hard for you. You can do this and you have no reason to be embarassed you did not cheat he DID... I went a while back and this is not the first time I have had to go. The first time I explained to the nurse who did not know me from adam that my H cheated on me and I needed to know I was ok... Tears started streaming down my face and she just patted my shoulder and said" it is going to be ok."
This time around I did not cry I was angry.... my H claimed he used a condom but I still wanted to know for myself. My h was actually offended { give me a break}and though he said he did not get anything {{ used a Condom and supposedly no Oral sex either}}he called three times to know the results and I explained they could not tell me anything that soon...
When he got home that nite he had the nerve to say that I made him feel bad that he was dirty.. and that if the Dr. knew why I had to go??? I lied to him and said the Dr. did not know that I was just thinking I had to get tested,,, you know my Dr. said to me only you know if you should stay with him and noone can judge you.. he has been my DR. for over 17 years.
I am getting angry as I type this b/c I do not understand how they { WAH} think they can play with our lives so easily by cheating and sleeping with us {LBS} like no big deal.. DEEP BREATH
Do not let this get you... ... you have no reason to feel shame you are a good person who loves someone who made a BIG MISTAKE.. plain and simple.
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God would be proud of you for staying commited to your Marriage.Stay strong. ...best of luck and God bless...
