The Little Black Book

[toughlover]

Thanks, cat. The truth sets us free, even it's ugly.

On the positive side, the entire incident has made my W and I embark on a journey of faith together that, so far and despite the pain, has been remarkable. We really see God moving in our lives.

For instance...when my wife dropped the bomb, she had no intention of remaining in the marriage, but she also had no intention of leaving our children, yet she felt that once I knew the truth, she had no chance of leaving WITH them.

So she says..."the only way this M can work" (and she didn't say she wanted it to) "is if we recommit ourselves to God and center our M around Christ."

And I was fixing to let her have it...I thought, "Who the heck are YOU to start telling ME about the Lord."

As I geared up to tell her exactly what I thought of her, clear as a bell, I hear this voice that says, "But she's right. The only time you've ever been truly happy is when you were following Me."

I mean, I'd been running from God (like Jonah) for several years myself. That was the last thing on my mind. Yet there it comes out of nowhere.

Later on...and this is important...she tells me that the only reason she said that to begin with was because she thought I tell her to buzz off (like I wanted), and then she could go and do what she wanted, and still blame me for it by saying, "Well, I offered, but he rejected me AND God."

I mean, how twisted is that?

And yet, I sincerely heard what I heard, believe what I do, and it's changed my life (again). When she saw how serious I was and how I changed almost overnight, she felt like she had no real choice but to reevaluate everything in light of her relationship with God. And she recommitted herself (genuinely, I believe).

Many amazing things have happened, and while I don't think God gave my wife that STD or anything like that, the timing of how she discovered it, when she ended up telling me, and several other things that happened along the way is truly incredible.