Kevin won't ever be happy because he doesn't have a clue what he wants and how to be happy. You on the other hand know that happiness comes from within ourselves and you have the opportunity to have a fantastic life.
You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself. Galileo Galilei
Thanks brandnew that's the site that I found as well. I guess I'll just have to call the courthouse and find out if I need a lawyer to file or if they provide the help. Also to find out costs.
Is it better for me to file or should I wait and let him file for custody and then go with it?
WOW you sound awesome... I am so proud of you. Your serenity is wonderful. Keep up the positive attitude and your ruby flips flops at hand you are your own best friend and you will find so much happiness when you get off his rollercoaster and stay on solid ground.
...love ya honey. ...you are the best. ... start living your life. ...just the Queen and her little Princesses.... you have a wonderful life ahead of you just open the door.
You've come a long way baby.....DO NOT LOOK BACK JUST LOOK TO WHAT BEAUTY YOUR FUTURE HOLDS... THE WORLD IS YOURS HONEY... START LIVING. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PROUD OF YOUR NEW ATTITUDE. xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo Love Ali GOD BLESS...
I hit a brick wall called rage today. I ended up screaming so hard that I think my throat bled. I'm wondering how to climb over this wall.
I want to stay angry because it protects me from the hurt that Kevin is causing. . . but I know it's a bad place to stay.
I am amazing serene but when I get to thinking about everything I just get that knot of anger in my chest/throat.
I want to rip all his happiness from him. He's made me so mad. This week while he was home he tried to act like a model father . . . he tried to act like he even knows his kids and at that point I felt myself wishing I could kick him in the teeth and tell him he's NEVER been there for them so to stop acting like he's the best damn dad.
I think he's honestly more worried about what people will think when he leaves then he is about having/not having his children.
I'm working my way through this. Thank God for that. Now to just find a spot of forgiveness not anger
... maybe someone here knows the stages of grieving,, I am not sure of the exact steps but I think anger does come before acceptance..... anyway being angry and letting your feelings out is ok honey. just do not do it {{{too much}}} in front of the girls get a journal { //a notebook} scream, punch your pillow, make some tea, scream some more,,, vent here,,, you have a right to be angry. You have decided to get off the Crazy Train that Kevin had you on and you have alot of Baggage... let it out it will take time and let it go and then will come the acceptance. Time honey Time....
Do not get back on Board ......just work thru this and you will be fine honey....
Write down all the awesome things you are going to accomplish in the next year for example .... 1. take the girls for a walk and look at the trees changing colors. 2. take a warm bath after the girls are in bed and just relax.
I could go on and on . It is the little daily things you can do for you that will help you heal too...
I will let the others help you with the others things that you can do to start living. Honey take it slow, take it one day at a time. When I was hurt how you are I would take it one hour at a time..... I remember thinking ok I got thru that hour now the next one and so on and so forth.
You can do this.. believe in you Emily.... God bless.... watch for his blessings honey sometimes they are so small we all forget to stop and take a deep breath and notice them. Life is a gift honey..
Quote: Don't know what's going on Don't know what went wrong Feels like a hundred years I Still can't believe you're gone So I'll stay up all night With these bloodshot eyes While these walls surround me with the story of our life
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever
Now things are coming clear And I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared So I'll stay out all night Get drunk and [censored] and fight Until the morning comes I'll Forget about our life
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me I should have made you leave I should have known it could be so much better I hope you're missing me I hope I've made you see That I'm gone forever
And now it's coming clear That I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever And now you're gone forever And now you're gone forever
Gone Forever - Three Days Grace
I LOVE THREE DAYS GRACE
I just got the new CD One-X and it's AMAZING. ALL THE SONGS ARE GREAT!
Quote: We had fire in our eyes In the beginning I Never felt so alive In the beginning you You blame me but It's not fair when you say that I didn't try I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die I just don't care about you anymore It's not fair when you say that I didn't try I just don't care about you anymore
We had time on our side In the beginning we We had nothing to hide In the beginning you You blame me but It's not fair when you say that I didn't try I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die I just don't care about you anymore It's not fair when you say that I didn't try I just don't care about you anymore
You say that I didn't try You say that I didn't try You say that I didn't try
I swear I never meant to let it die I just don't care about you anymore It's not fair when you say that I didn't try I just don't care about you anymore I just don't care about you anymore I just don't care about you anymore I just don't care about you anymore I just don't care about you anymore
Quote: Personally, I'd give my husband's left nut to skip depression .
I'd give BOTH my husband's nuts to skip depression.
Why can't I skip all the steps and go right from anger to acceptance. I went from denial to anger quickly (overnight)
what exactly is the bargaining stage? Is there any chance I've already done that too and now I'm at anger. Because I went through a phase while he was here but wanted to be with her. Where I practically begged him to go back to her but "keep me on the side" DIGUSTING and LOW. I hate myself for even thinking it . . . but I was just crazy at that point.
at hand you are your own best friend and you will find so much happiness when you get off his rollercoaster and stay on solid ground. 
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