Quote: did however take some real steps today. I got into the doctors and got some help for my depression and anxiety. I also got my learners permit (drivers) today.
Awesome honey!!! Make a list - check off the boxes. I am proud of you.
Here's a prayer for you...
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things that I can. And the wisdom to know the difference."
He came here this week to end it. We went to Hershey for Kiya's doctors appointment (WHICH THANK GOD MY BABY IS OK. She doesn't have to go back for a year) and he was miserable all day because he couldn't quit thinking about her. Yesterday he was still here because he can't very well just leave when he doesn't have a car and he only has his semi. So he left lastnight, to go back out on the road. But it's over. He told me he just loved her so much. He doesn't enjoy ANYTHING about me anymore. Everything about me feels wrong to him. (he elborated but I don't feel the need to get into it) He used my computer to contact her and change all his profile stuff back to her (while I was in the shower might I add)
He told me he hasn't officially asked her yet but he'd like to marry her by next year. ETC ETC ETC
you all get the point. He hasn't filed for the D yet. But since he has to go through the court he said it'll cost him like 1200.00 or so to file it all. Soo . . it'll be awhile for him to save that up. But . . .
I'm not too sure how exactly to proceed from here.
I'm just going to try to go a day at a time and make it work for me. It's hard and I think I may still be in the denial stage but . . . it'll all work out. I just don't want to face the truth really.
Well, Emily, you know that it's not. You know that he's going to continue to flip-flop. He'll be back the next time he has a big fight with her.
Quote: He told me he just loved her so much.
You also know that this isn't true. He is infatuated with her. He doesn't really love anyone.
Quote: He doesn't enjoy ANYTHING about me anymore. Everything about me feels wrong to him. (he elborated but I don't feel the need to get into it)
That's because he feels so guilty when he's with you. Feeling guilty never feels good to anyone.
Quote: He told me he hasn't officially asked her yet but he'd like to marry her by next year.
Which only goes to show how screwed up he is that he's married to one person and already planning another failed marriage.
Honestly, though, I can't believe you still let him in your home. You are better off without him. Leave him alone for a while. If he changes .... great! If not, then you can work on finding a partner for a Biblical marriage.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)
Quote: I'm not too sure how exactly to proceed from here.
I will be blunt and answer this simply, just go back to your first post on the board and read all the posts from then to now. You keep going around in circles. You have been given so much good advice and support but for what ever reason you choose to ignore it. Good luck to you.
