You're all right. I screwed up big time. I don't think he'll give me another shot. Nor do I think I deserve one.
You're absolutely right. I'm sure he hates me by now.
Yes these are the things he tells me, "I love her more" "I'm divorcing you (this time it just happened to be this Monday)" etc etc etc They're not all crazy assumptions. ALSO I would like to point out that not yet have I had an ASSumption that was wrong. So far they've all been right.
He was suppose to be here tomorrow. I would have loved that. We had a wonderful weekend planed. When we are together I am happy and I don't badger him about things. It's totally different when he is with me. . . . because when he's with me I know he's not talking to her or seeing her. He can be thinking about her . . . but I don't have to know about that.
I just don't know. I screwed it all up and I think it may have really been my last chance.
