Alive And Kicking

[Emily28]

Thanks T2SP!

I sure hope you are right and he hasn't been talking to her. . . . .

You're probably right about him just not being ready to talk about US . . . . . I understand the guilt (at least I hope he is having guilt because that means the OW is truly out of the picture).

He keeps the convo's painfully short because he's always "busy" getting ready to go or something to do with his work.

Like I said we talked more when he was still with the OW. It's kind of sad!

I'm trying to sit back and be patient . . .. God made me a touch short on patience though

[still.struggling]

I'm trying to sit back and be patient . . .. God made me a touch short on patience though

I used to be the same way. I would call my H all the time. Sometimes I would make things up just to talk to him. It was pathetic. Now when I don't call him, he calls me.

[AmyC]

God made me a touch short on patience though

No, He didn't.

He made you so you'd lean on Him.

He is made perfect in your weakness (2 Cor. 12:9).

His grace is sufficient.

[RBinBR]

Emily, God is using this to TEACH you patience. It has sure worked for me, anyway.

[whatisis]

I know I'm thinking "Couldn't he have just made me wait in a long checkout line for awhile instead!"

[Emily28]

Well my H called me at 4AM and was perfectly miserable.
He was just angry and unpleasant.
UGH!

He's soo frustraighting.

I did however take some real steps today.
I got into the doctors and got some help for my depression and anxiety.
I also got my learners permit (drivers) today.

So there all in one day I took two steps!

Now to just sort out this horrid mess with my H.
I don't know what is going happen.
I just think he really hates me.

There's not much I can do though

You all are right about the patience and I know it.
I'll look up that verse later Amy. I'm sure it will come in VERY handy.

I'll be around more later!
Hope you all have had a great day!

[SRTogacihC]

Congrats on accomplishing two of your goals...Learners Permit is a good start...keep plugging away!

[Sandy_wants_to_try]

I am really proud of you Emily! Yay!!

About your H, I think he hates himself and just life in general... let him deal with it. Don't feel you have to sort it out... you already have a lot on your plate without having to fix him too.
He can do it himself. You take care of you, right?

[Emily28]

You take care of you, right?

RIGHT!

I actually took the step by TRULY reaching out and telling my doctor exactly how I was feeling!

I did it mainly because I was looking up information on my birth control (Mirena IUD)
and I found out that it can cause: SEVERE MOOD SWINGS/Depression!
NO WONDER I'VE BEEN SO CRAZY!

So I called the doctor to ask my orginal question and brought up the other issue I've been having.

At long last maybe I'll get things under control!

[flip]

setting and achieving goals for yourself is about the best feeling in the world - keep it up!