Quote: I mean I miss just talking to him because we are friends. I just don't understand what he is going through. . . . mainly because he won't talk to me. I don't know if he's too busy with her on the phone. Or if he's just honestly busy. Or if he's just not ready to talk yet.
You need to give him time. He more than likely isn't talking to her, but is afraid to talk to you because you will yell at him or mention the relationship and he isn't ready to discuss this. Whenever he does call, keep it short and don't mention anything that will upset him. He has to feel comfortable with you again. He knows he did wrong and I am sure the guilt is eating him up. My H actually told me the reason he gets off the phone fast is because he is afraid I will start talking dumb (which means bring US up). I have learned to not mention anything to do with us. This helps, he talks more to me now than before.
Quote: I have a real problem being alone in a room by myself for too long (this is a joke . . . I am laughing)
At least you can joke about it. I know what you are saying though. I hate being alone. When you are alone then your mind tends to make up its own stories. Keeping busy or making sure you are not alone is the best way to get through this.
Quote: I JUST WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am WILLING to do ANYTHING! ANYTHING! I just want my marriage to work.
In this case, sit back and let it take it course. It isn't going to happen over night. It takes lots of time to fix a marriage. If only it was as easy as buying some crazy glue and just putting it back together.
You are doing fine. As long as you keep yourself focused on the positive stuff and leave the negativity behind then you will survive.
