These are my random thoughts of the day. (I have to get them so I'll do it here!)
I almost wish that Kev would've kept his whore around. The silence between he and I has become deafening (sp?) I CAN'T stand it. He called MORE when he was running around with her than he does now.
Now maybe that's a good thing . . . . but it makes me worry and feel like total poo! I just don't know what to do. I MISS him. I mean I miss just talking to him because we are friends. I just don't understand what he is going through. . . . mainly because he won't talk to me. I don't know if he's too busy with her on the phone. Or if he's just honestly busy. Or if he's just not ready to talk yet.
I JUST DON'T KNOW. I see real positives . . . but EVERY positive can be reversed. Sure he HAS to stop by here this weekend. His paycheck is sitting here. BUT it doesn't mean he'll keep it that way.
I JUST WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am WILLING to do ANYTHING! ANYTHING! I just want my marriage to work.
I am trying to keep faith and hope together . . . but I'm losing both and I'm feeding into all of those bad thoughts. GRRRR . . . I have a real problem being alone in a room by myself for too long (this is a joke . . . I am laughing)
I feel better now . . . just having that whole mess of crappy feelings out. Thanks for listening.
