I said it on your thread and I'll say it here too!
THANK YOU AMY! I needed to hear all of that (from your thread) yesterday!
Well my H called me this morning and told me not worry he loved me very much and he would be home this weekend. I sure hope it all works out. I really don't have anything to say. Maybe later I'll have more exciting news.
I LOVE THIS SONG. . . . I thought I'd share it with you all . .
Quote: While he was schemeing I was beamin in the Beamer just steamin Can't believe that I caught my man cheatin' So I found another way to make him pay for it all
So I went To Neiman-Marcus on a shopping spree And on the way I grabbed Soley and Mia And as the cash box rang I thought everything away
(Oops) There goes the dreams we used to say (oops) There goes the time we spent away (oops) There goes the love I had but you cheated on me And thats worth that now (oops) There goes the house we made a home (oops) There goes you'll never leave me alone For all the lies you told This is what you owe
Hey Ladies When your man wanna get buckwild Just go back and Hit 'Em Up Style Put your hands on his cash And spend it to the last dime For all the hard times Oh When you go then everything goes From the crib to the ride and the clothes So you better let him know that If he messed up you gotta hit em up
While he was braggin I was coming down the hill and just draggin All his pictures and his clothes in the bag and Sold everything else till there was just nothin left
And I paid All the bills about a month too late It's a shame we have to play these games The love we had just fades away, away
(Oops) There goes the dreams we used to say (oops) There goes the time we spent away (oops) There goes the love I had but you cheated on me And thats worth that now (oops) There goes the house we made a home (oops) There goes you'll never leave me alone For all the lies you told This is what you owe
Hey Ladies When your man wanna get buckwild Just go back and Hit 'Em Up Style Put your hands on his cash And spend it to the last dime For all the hard times Oh When you go then everything goes From the crib to the ride and the clothes So you better let him know that If he messed up you gotta hit em up
[Repeat 1x]
All of the dreams you sold Left me out in the cold What happened to the days when we used to trust each other And all of the things I sold Will take you until you get old To get 'em back without me Cuz a marriage is better than money you see
Hey Ladies When your man wanna get buckwild Just go back and Hit 'Em Up Style Put your hands on his cash And spend it to the last dime For all the hard times Oh When you go then everything goes From the crib to the ride and the clothes So you better let him know that If he messed up you gotta hit em up
Blu Cantrell - Hit 'Em Up Style
So my mom called me and offered me her car. They are planning on getting a newer one. She said if I wanted it they would sign it over because "they won't get a good trade in in on it anyway."
It's like a 2003 Hyundai Elantra! So that's GREAT! The deal is that if they don't go to the brothers this week to visit I have to go take the permit test otherwise I have to go next week. I told her NO PROBLEM. . . this isn't the part of it that I am scared of. The money has been what holding me back. So I think she's going to spring for that as well.
after my H and OP broke up it took him about 2mths for him to deal with the heartache, this is a ROUGH stimate. After he came back to me he sent her a 60$ bouquet for her bday and still tried to contact her (acording to him, to see why she was so mad at him, she broke it off badly and told him many reasons why she hated his guts)
He came back to me beginning of April, by June he still kept her messages on his phone and a big old box of stuff about her (that's how I found out the PA stuff )
It's Sept. now and a few days ago he tells me how he doesn't want to remember anything about the A, how he'd give anything so that the A wouldnt' have happen, how his mind can't stop thinking it didnt' have to happen. How with time he is starting to see what kind of person he was, how he used him then dumped him. We all have different time lines, just sharing mine.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
So my H REALLY did change his address so that he'll be home HERE on the weekends and NOT end up down there anymore. I found out HOWEVER that he SPENT all of last weekend down there. Which I didn't know. GRRRR. Anyway. I got his latest paycheck today (his direct deposit doesn't work right yet.) So . . . . . that's how I found out he spent the whole weekend there. It makes me VERY angry. But what can you do. At least he made A move in the "right" direction. Well see just how long it keeps this time. I've already got SERIOUS doubts.
Quote: So my mom called me and offered me her car. They are planning on getting a newer one. She said if I wanted it they would sign it over because "they won't get a good trade in in on it anyway."
It's like a 2003 Hyundai Elantra! So that's GREAT! The deal is that if they don't go to the brothers this week to visit I have to go take the permit test otherwise I have to go next week. I told her NO PROBLEM. . . this isn't the part of it that I am scared of. The money has been what holding me back. So I think she's going to spring for that as well.
THANK YOU GOD FOR ALWAY PROVIDING FOR ME!
This was a beautiful thing for me to read tonight. Not the fact your parents are giving you a car or helping you get your license...but that you saw it all for what it was and thanked God for providing.
Remember that.
He provides the lessons you learn in your "valley", as well.
One of my bestfriends from highschool! Is home on a 4 month break. Good ole PJ! I saw him yesterday. It was quite funny I'm sure. Em and I were standing inbetween the sheds. (Her back was to the direction he came from) When he poke his head around the corner I was like, "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!" I jumped up and gave him a HUGE hug . . .it's been over a year since I've seen him. Later she was like, "I couldn't figure out who it was that you would react like that."
Anyway . . . . . point is . . . I'll have good company.
THANK YOU GOD for giving me WONDERFUL things.
Now I just wish things with Kevin would straighten out!
These are my random thoughts of the day. (I have to get them so I'll do it here!)
I almost wish that Kev would've kept his whore around. The silence between he and I has become deafening (sp?) I CAN'T stand it. He called MORE when he was running around with her than he does now.
Now maybe that's a good thing . . . . but it makes me worry and feel like total poo! I just don't know what to do. I MISS him. I mean I miss just talking to him because we are friends. I just don't understand what he is going through. . . . mainly because he won't talk to me. I don't know if he's too busy with her on the phone. Or if he's just honestly busy. Or if he's just not ready to talk yet.
I JUST DON'T KNOW. I see real positives . . . but EVERY positive can be reversed. Sure he HAS to stop by here this weekend. His paycheck is sitting here. BUT it doesn't mean he'll keep it that way.
I JUST WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am WILLING to do ANYTHING! ANYTHING! I just want my marriage to work.
I am trying to keep faith and hope together . . . but I'm losing both and I'm feeding into all of those bad thoughts. GRRRR . . . I have a real problem being alone in a room by myself for too long (this is a joke . . . I am laughing)
I feel better now . . . just having that whole mess of crappy feelings out. Thanks for listening.
Quote: I mean I miss just talking to him because we are friends. I just don't understand what he is going through. . . . mainly because he won't talk to me. I don't know if he's too busy with her on the phone. Or if he's just honestly busy. Or if he's just not ready to talk yet.
You need to give him time. He more than likely isn't talking to her, but is afraid to talk to you because you will yell at him or mention the relationship and he isn't ready to discuss this. Whenever he does call, keep it short and don't mention anything that will upset him. He has to feel comfortable with you again. He knows he did wrong and I am sure the guilt is eating him up. My H actually told me the reason he gets off the phone fast is because he is afraid I will start talking dumb (which means bring US up). I have learned to not mention anything to do with us. This helps, he talks more to me now than before.
Quote: I have a real problem being alone in a room by myself for too long (this is a joke . . . I am laughing)
At least you can joke about it. I know what you are saying though. I hate being alone. When you are alone then your mind tends to make up its own stories. Keeping busy or making sure you are not alone is the best way to get through this.
Quote: I JUST WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am WILLING to do ANYTHING! ANYTHING! I just want my marriage to work.
In this case, sit back and let it take it course. It isn't going to happen over night. It takes lots of time to fix a marriage. If only it was as easy as buying some crazy glue and just putting it back together.
You are doing fine. As long as you keep yourself focused on the positive stuff and leave the negativity behind then you will survive.
