I'm new here but I have just read your stit and I remember when I was only 27 with 2 small children and no job when my first H left. I know that you are scared - but believe me I did the same thing as you - being negative. Please take my advise and just worry about you and your girls - as hard as I know this is. If he does not come back to your marriage and your girls - believe me they will make their own decision about him when they are older. Do not speak badly about him, do make the girls spend time with him whenever he is available. My children are now 29 & 26 and neither one of them have contact with him - that is their decision and not mine. I have always made them keep in touch with him and when both turned 18 they were done. He cannot blame me and he knows this. We are now grandparents and he really doesn't even know his grandchildren. Sad it is!
Anyway, I also live in PA - Phila - where do you live?
Please try to relax and enjoy your children while the are small - mine were my saving grace. Put all your energy into them and not him. The rewards are tenfold - unconditional love. Nothing like it. God bless you and your girls.
