ACJ I know you're right about me always expecting the worst from him . . . but it's what I ALWAYS get.
If I expect him NOT to show I won't be crushed and end up in a tailspin next weekend. If he shows . . . it'll be a great "surprise" and I can be happy then.
Just like I believe he is lying about us being OK. I think he's still with the OW. I won't let him know it. BUT if it ends up NOT being true then it'll be pleasant. If it ends up being true at least I can tell myself I knew it all along.
