Emily- Don't even think about Kevin or your marriage right now. It is not time to worry about that, and you can't control that. We are not talking about saving the marriage, or if you do or don't want it. We are talking about saving Emily and her girls. Everything else is for later.
Asking for help is not weak. You came here for help, it is being offered (well maybe shoved down your throat) freely. Accept it. Needing, accepting, and giving help is what makes us human. You don't have to get through this yourself.
You have some really big mood swings happening here. I wonder if you may be suffering from bi-polar disorder, not just depression. You need to see a PSYCHIATRIST, not a secretary, not a "counsellor"--an MD who knows about mental illness.
I know I've been harping on this for a couple of months now, but it has obviously become imperative.
I hope you are okay.
Nicola
Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself My thread: Trusting God's Plan
Everything is fine. I went out with a friend. I haven't even been on here since my last posts until right now. She is going to hang out here tonight. But even if she wasn't I AM FINE. Yeah I'm having a hard time dealing with my H leaving his family for the whore. But it's whatever. . . it's done. I can't undo it. I can only fight him tooth and nail for every goddamn thing I have.
Really . . . everything is fine.
I just had a really crappy day. I'm not f-ing bi polar. It's just hormones and stress . . . . I really do think most of this is normal. I'm upset for a day or a few hours and it goes away and I am fine. That's why she won't put me on anything. Yes I talked to her. (My OB) There's nothing they will do.
I'm FINE! Sorry to leave you hanging. She has to see me in a few weeks about my birth control so she said we can discuss it further then if I am still down in the mouth.