I am sorry if this sounds gruff but I am tired of the drama you create. I know you are having a tough time right now and need help but until you help yourself, we can't help you. Have you called the doctor? Probably not. Don't keep putting it off. You will not get better by yourself. You need help and you need to ask for it.
First thing though, stop repeating what she wrote on that blog. That is old news. We all know the story and we all think it is crap.
Did he tell YOU that he wanted to marry her? He doesn't love her. He just thinks he does. He doesn't want the responsibility of being a husband or father right now so his way of dealing with it is to play "house" with her. When it comes to you and the kids, he has to be responsible. When it comes to her, he can just up and go when things don't go the way he wants. Right now it is a game for him. He knows you want him and will take him back so he keeps on. You need to stop calling him. You need to stop telling him you love him and want everything to work out. Don't talk about your relationship. Don't tell him how you feel. You are giving him ammo to use for his purposes. I bet he sits back and thinks he can do anything he wants cuz you are sitting home waiting for him. Give him something to fight for. Don't make it easy on him.
Quote: I HAVE FAILED AS A WIFE
You have not failed as a wife. He failed as a husband.
Quote: It is over!
No it isn't. If it were over, you wouldn't be acting like this. You would just say to hell with it and not let anything bother you. With you getting angry proves you love him and want things to work out. You need to step back and look at yourself and what you are doing not only to you and him, but to the kids. You two need to come to a neutral place for the kids. It isn't their fault they were born into the situation. The can't help that the two of you are having problems. Show your girls that you are a fighter and not a quitter. Show them how strong you are and let go of the past and move forward.
